happy valentine's day

happy valentine's day everyone..
i'm feeling so depressed now.. i was spending my valentine's day in my house.. but it's okay with me .. since baby said tat everyday with me was a valentine's day ..^^ i heard it before at somewhere but i like to hear or read words from him..he's really my everything.. nothing can ever change my mind..even the worst thing happen to me .. i choose to be with him again!i'm not nuds..is just i've falled for him.. dont ask me why.. i dont even know why i will be like this.. i never fall for a guy so deeply crazy before..i wanted to know why as well..

i'm sad..u shouldn't say tat to me after i told u all the truth .. i just wish to gain ur trust.. but u let me feel tat i told u everything was a mistake..i really dont know why i'm so untrustable.. yea i admit i lied to u .. but u did lied to me before.. everyones have mistake b4.. i did u did , but we're all learning from our mistakes..u dont want to trust on me when i'm willing to change??at least i'm truthful to you since i couple with u on 25th of july until now..i never lied to u my feelings i never lied to u about my love .. i'm sincere to u doing everything..

i hate to take bus.. i'm tired to take lrt .. i'm lonely to walk alone.. find u alone .. back home alone..but all tat i did just because of u .. cause i knew i can meet u cause i wanted to meet u .. i did all those things just because of u .. i'm scare to drive all the way to wangsa maju to find u .. but everytime on the way i find u .. i told myself ..few more minutes i can meet u .. i just willing to do all these things for u .. i really dont know am i a good girlfriend anot.. but i really do my best to be the one.. maybe i'm too sticky .. maybe i'm too disturbing..but it's just because of i'm afraid of losing u ..

i'm sorry ... i wish to feel wat's inside u .. i wish to be the only 1 in your heart..can i ???




p/s :no more forever from u ..

last decision

最后的决定，我们分手吧！从来不想说出的话，我打从心里说出来了。。在这段爱情里，烦最大的错是你，要挽回的是我。。我很辛苦！因为害怕一个人就跟她交往了整整骗了我3个月。。为什么跟你出来那么多次你还可以若无其事的说你爱的只有我？你不内疚吗？而我。。没有做出对不起你的事，就一直内疚为什么我要去看戏。。后悔了。。我要改过我要让你从新相信我。。而你就一直骗我。。一直骗我。。你跟我说你跟她只是普通朋友，讲讲电话，出来吃吃。。铭漳你到底骗了我多少你很清楚吧。。最大的骗子是谁自己心知肚明吧。。我只骗你2次而已。。就已经足够让我悔改。。我累了。。真的累了。。。我会找回属于我的世界。。你就跟她在一起吧！

在这场爱情里，我选择退出。。不是我不爱你，不是我舍得放弃你。。是因为我觉得你变了。。你不再像以前那么爱我了。。也是因为我不想看到你烦，所以别烦了好不好？我放弃了。。你会很好吧。。她会像我那么爱你吗？没有人会像我那么笨放弃一切爱你吧。。

lazy to type mandarine lar..
at last, i lost you in my world as well.. what forever, what only belongs to me, i really dont know which wan true which wan fake wan oh.. i'm tired of catagorize them into fake or real..i'm tired of crying, tired of suspecting, tired of checking... tot u will be the special wan.. but there's no different between u and other guys.. i felt that now.. love me?? love her?? why 2 timing?? eventhough that, i gave u chance right?? but why are u still hurting me?? stupid me !!! stupid yuki gan mok wen!!!

thought wan get back ur love .. i tried my best proving to u .. but u ?? from the beginning .. u already take my love gave her.. i'm just doing something stupid.. trust u again and again.. gave u chances again and again.. at last.. u ruins up everything.. and dont know wat to do.. why ?? u choose to start this game baby.. u dunno how to end this game up?? "game over" don't u know tis??

i love u .. just 3 words it doesn't seems enough for me to express my love .. no ones know how much i love u .. just heaven and earth!! even u.. u dont even wan to feel my love ... i shouldn't beg u back this time i told myself.. should have let u go long ago.. but those words u told me.. i tot its true.. i tot u love me like u said .. i tot u never do anything wrong to me .. but i'm wrong.. u say i dont trust u .. but u're lying me when i trust u .. wat you've done baby.. u cut my heart.. into pieces... n let it bleed just like tat..

i cant celebrate valentine v u .. i cant pass through everyday v u .. i just wish u could be happy .. maybe v "her"

Zhang, just be happy v wat u have.. don't be greedy .. u teached me tis... appreciate wat u have now.. yea i appreciate u .. but how bout u ?? did u appreciate me?? now i'm out... appreciate wat u have now..

i'm back to single .. maybe i dont deserve for love.. i hate sweet memories.!!!


i'm out of my mind when i'm typing this post.. please forgive me for any words that too over...


people, i'll end this blog here..i'm sorry i break my promise tat i would never end this blog.. T.T sorry bloggy..

*i was born to tell u i love u*

(dont you think it's sweet??it's for u actually)

THE END

hurt..

i'm totally depressed today, i'm alone..i lost eveything in a sudden.. my heart inconsolable.. who cares bout me?? i'm a human being..i got feelings people!! why are you all hurt me again and again?why i don't deserve true love ??why don't kill me instead of hurt me like tat?? i dont like the feeling of hurt , i dont like crying!!

can it be just only a dream??please.. i beg u ..GOD!! wake me up from this dream please.. i'm tired of crying!! i just want someone to love me sincerely..why i don deserve it when i truly love someone?? why ????????

i know.. i know i'm ugly.. i know i'm stupid.. i know i dont know how to be a good girlfriend.. but i've tried my best.. why dont you give me a chance when i'm trying wor ? why did u hurt me when i'm very truly n love v you?? i cant stop my tears.. cant you consult me?? cant you??

i love you.. i love you more than everyone do.. cross my heart.. i appreciate the chance you gave.. last chance you gave.. i did everything well isn't it?? but i still don't get ur trust.. u noe.. i never give up.. how hard was it? how pain am i ? when u dont trust me.. but i choose to not give up.. dont u ever think of tat? why am i not give up?? just because of i love u .. i want u stay by my side..yea i asked for it .. but i'm correcting my mistake isn't it baby??

i got lots of words in my brain.. my heart was bleeding.. my tears was pouring ... wat should i do right now?? will i get the answer from u ?? will i have my baby back?? i'm hurt.. .. i'm scare... hurt because of tat.. scare to lost u .. are u afraid of losing me??wat am i ??? yuki gan .. wat r u????

sob..i gave u the chance .. u noe wat i mean??i'm still here for u ...

the day

3th of february .. ssuppose to blog bout my new year events..but i'm not in tat mood right now..tomolo is an important day for me.. i'm very very fan bout tomolo !! how's the schedule should be arrange?? i never do this before.. pls forgive me..i wish to give u a happy day tomolo .. i'll do my best!!!

i'm tired today .. wan have a rest .. nitez nitez..

i love u CHOW MING ZHANG!!!!!