....

suddenly only.. i get doubt .. get scold bad words .. when i did nothing wrong.. I REALLY DID NOTHING WRONG!!! why scold me bad words?? even when i do something wrong.. u don have to scold me bad words.. just mad at me like u wan without bad words? cant u?? i'm your gf!!! u noe how hurt am i when u scold me bad words? how hurt am i when u talk bout me v other guys
?? n i was get scolded tis time when i did nothing wrong!!!! i didnt talk on phone k? i swear !! just now daddy called me ask me wat's the meaning of elergic.. and then ask me to pass the phone to mom.. if i lie to u .. i'll get bang by car tomolo morning n suffer from painful for 100 years!!!

when u told me ur mom used ur phone and called others.. did i ask u to pass ur phone to ur mom?? baby.. my mom will feel tat u very childish k? just think for ur side can mar?? if i really pass the phone to mom.. wat will my mom think?? how can we move on for yearssS?? why cant u understand my feeling??

baby why.... why are u scolding me bad words??? i hate that .. i hate u scold bad wrods to me !!! i hate u !!! sob ... why wor .. sob.. i love u .. i like ur care.. i like ur love ... i really don like being scold bad words by u .. baby... sob... can u just ... don scold me bad words?? tat''s hurt.. sob...

you ain't me..

i very moody today.. SOB.. trust not belongs to me? bloggy.. i really very tired.. no ones really understand wat's in my heart.. even the one in my heart.. he still hesitate my love .. hesitate my truthness..i just.. forget it..

i really never ever hold till so long before arr.. i scare tuff life .. scare to suffer.. scare to being scold .. scare to being angry ar...i never tam a guy so hard before.. care a guy feelind so hard before..i very suffer ... baby ... suffer because whenever u dont trust me i have to explain so much which u never ever care about.. suffer when my tears drop non-stop but u still treat me so cruel.. baby.. if i really dont love u why i wan suffer for so long wor?? sob...

i'm sorry .. maybe it's my fault tat i dont gain ur trust .. yea it's my fault.. sob.. i hate u yuki gan .. i hate u .. u don even deserve for love !!! I HATE YOU !!! SOB!!!

to some people out there.. don try to expect me as wat u all think.. u ain't me..u don even understand wat's in my heart then don talk bullshit behind of people.. plss!! unless u r yuki gan mok wen.. FUCK!!! my love is nothing to do v u .. y u wan come and control my life and mess up everything?? did i do tat to u before?? i never.. u love ur one i love my one.. why u till wan backstab me..

GOD!!!why problem came to me again and again ?? can let me rest?? i'm tired of them.. tired of everything.. kill me pls .. instead of leaving these all problem to me?? i hate THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i hate YUKI GAN MOK WEN!!!!!!!!!!






p/s:at least i did my part! at least i did everything aboveboard!!

nightmare!!

tis few days keep havinng nightmares.. it's all related to u baby.. izzit a signal or wat?? i very scare oo.. u always say i think too much..but i din arr.. i dunno .. i tried my very very best not to talk bout her le arr baby .. don't u feel tat?? but dont know why .. nightmare spinning me around..i hate u Mr.Nightmare!!!hng!!!
end of sad stuff ~~

my happy stuff was..............................................my exam results!!!!
huhu!!! i'm very satisfied v my results!! actually a pass is enough for me.. but it can be better if i work harder .. right?? yuki gan.. blek..ohya.. vic vic babe .. i noe ur management marks is quite near to your aiming.. but it's ok lar.. at least u tried your best ..then there's no regret on urself .. babe .. i'm gonna miss u for this long period... DONT EVER FORGET ME YA!!!!

next week starting my lecture .. i'm going to be alone.. sob sob.. statistic seems hard..management seems hard for me too.. i'm afraid ..someone save me plsss...T.T
going to have investment exam .. and i havent finish studying it yet.. wat a holiday!!

cancel of the uninvited movie.. i cant watch dy .. byebye .. sob sob.. and yet.. aeon theatre was close for a period.. as well as harvey norman.. heard there's an incident from the theatre which affect harvey norman.. pity harvey norman.. anyway, tat's not a big effect on me since i was spending my holiday life at my house..~special isn't it?~
haha...

ermm... saturday which means tomolo will have ur exam.. all the best alright??? WPD only mar.. it's nothing for u .. hehe .. jia you jia you !!! muackss you oo!!!

p/s:i wan easy go lucky!!!

holiday life

Second day of your exam...5 days of cooling period..
u started never find me.. izzit u forget bout me.. u don bother to find me.. or u just too busy till cant even msg me?? i dont understand... am my expextation too high?? am i too over?? i just wish to feel tat u will always remember me.. no matter wat.. how can u remember to online than find me??

YUKI GAN.. no more complaining.. told myself again and again.. i really gonna gone crazy.. wat will happen to our relationship if we continue like tis?? baby .. i really very suffer to be like tis...
can the exam just over faster??

tis few days.. my time was like passing so slow until i feel really very so lifeless!! i'm going crazy!!

accident yesterday!!! BKc8981 second time i took it into accident... i'm sorry buddy.. i should have take very good care of you.. sorry for my clumsyness.. sob sob...4th of november 2008 i got my first accident and i still remember wat had happen on the next day... it hurts me alot alot...21th of april my second accident...crying is not my favourite.. but i just feel sad .. just let me cry .. as i'm an EXTRA ORDINARY INCONSOLABLE PEOPLE!!no harms right???anyway...

my sis skip class today... she having heavy headache.. well .. therefore i'm not home alone today.. u noe ... how i spent my time tis few days??
woke up > wash up > breakfast > watch show > onine offline > hear songs sing songs > seeing my hp again and again (even if my phone response..it always disappointed me cause it wasn't u) > lying thinking > walk here walk there !!!! damn lifeless whey!!!!!

but then that's wat i choose to do.. i rejected my frens invitations.. sorry ya..

and yea .. found my favourite song *it ends tonight*

"when darkness turns to light , it ends tonight ... it ends tonight..."
i should forget bout sad stuff right??but i just cant!!!!
not forgetten this~~~~GOOD LUCK IN YOUR EXAM ALRIGHT???Jia You!!!muackss!!!!





p/s: life sucks!!!

i miss you!!

First day of ur exam.. u seems very happy .. must be u did it very well lor..^^ happy for you oh...

erm...it's 11.26 pm now.. my family all sleeping d lor.. suddenly feel very lonely eh.. wanna msg u or call u .. but i just .. hold my hands off the phone.. (i said wait )^^

seems like time pass very slow eh.. i cant wait to meet u .. i cant stand the feeling without you..

i'm sorry ..

u noe wat .. i found this song.. and i really love it so much..

hatin on the club by rihanna

(Clapping)Now To Sing Her Latest Recording

It's The Beautiful Miss Rihannaoh woahhhoo oh oh(x2)oh

Now this'll be the last time you did me wrong

No more laying up in your arms

No calling, saying you want me back

I'm packing my bags, what you think about that?

Stayed at home like a good girl do

But tonight baby you got me sad and blue

I just heard about the girl in your car

yall, kissing at the bar

Got me cry-yay-yay-yayyyy

[Chorus:]Ohhhhhhhhh, you got me hatin' on the club

'Cause you took my loveOh you took my love

Now you got me like whoahhhhhhhh

You got me hatin' on the club'

Cause you took my love

Why'd you have to take my love

Whoahhhhhhhhoh,oh,oh,oh,oh,oh,oh,oh,oh,oho(x2)

oh,oh,oh,oh,oh,oh,oh,oh,oh,oho,uh,oho,uh,oho,uh,oho,uhoho oh

And you can be mad at me all you want

I ain't coming in, I'll be waiting out front

Coming out the door with your girlfriend

You did me wrong boy tell me where our love is

Stayed at home like a good girls do

But tonight baby you got me sad and blue

I just heard about the girl in your car yall, kissing at the bar

Got me cry-yay-yay-yayyy

[Chorus:]Ohhhhhhhhh, you got me hatin' on the club'

Cause you took my loveOh you took my love

Now you got me like whoahhhhhhhh

You got me hatin' on the club

'Cause you took my love

Why'd you have to take my love

Whoahhhhhhhhoh,oh,oh,oh,oh,oh,oh,oh,oh,oho(x2)oh,oh,oh,oh,oh,oh,oh,oh,oh,oho,uh,oho,uh,oho,uh,oho,uhoho oh

Now this is the sound of a broken heart

There's only one reason why we're apart

She never woulda made it to your car

If it wasn't for the club, I'd still have my love(x2)

We would still have us(x2)

I'd still have my loveeeeeee(x2)

We would still have us

But now we're like whoahhhh

Ohhh, you got me hatin' on the club'

Cause you took my love

Oh you took my love

But now, now we're like whoahhhhhhh

You got me hatin' on the club

You took my love

Oh you took my love

You Got her hatin on ohhhh

You Got her hatin on the club(x4)club,club,club

You Got her hatin on ohhhh

You Got her hatin on the club

p/s: There are moments in life when you miss someone so much that you just want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real.

the meaning of life

i'm not in mood .. and no one knows tat..
i have a conflict with my parents .. which i really dunno how to handle it anymore...
i lose the reason of why am i living for ...

i'll always ask myself the same question again and again.. why am i living in this world?? ans : to my loved ones..(you and my family)
and now.. i disappointed my family.. i left you..
i knew ... i knew tat losing me in ur life doesn't seems any big deal for you.. but still.. i really cant leave u alone..even i know there will be a lot of girls around you..

mommy daddy just argued.. i cant help anything.. i just feel like .. i'm the one that making all these happened.. now again, i lost the meaning of living in this world.. what am i suppose to be?? what should i do ?? i'm sad .. i'm depressed i'm inconsolable.. and the one that i wish to consult me was u .. will u be by my side whenever i need u?? u r the only one baby ..

i had a nightmare yesterday night baby .. i dreamt about you.. i found tears with me when i woke up.. i feel so release when i knew that was just a dream..

bi... i know you are busying with your exam stuff this few days.. i try my best no to make you angry .. try my best not to disturb you.. ain't decreasing my love towards you alright?? and yet.. baby even you are busying with your exam stuff, do take very good care of your health alright?? your important meals - you shouldn't forget about it, water - you might forget but must remember to drink oh, rest - i know.. to finish off your study, u forced yourself to study till late night.. i know u wont hear my advice o sleep early.. anyway take enough rest when you feel free to okay..when you finish off your exam.. we go for vacation okay.. i know wat u going to say .. but if we cant make it to vacation.. then we just have fun by other ways lar ^^

and here are some of my words to you :

To zhang <3

* Good luck lao gong ! i know you can do the best wan oh.. cause lao gong are so hardworking studying this few days..all the best oo lao gong !! you know.. you are always the smartest wan in my heart ~~ although i'm in klang, but i'm here praying for baby during your exam alright? and horr, baby if you busy do tell me k? i will try my best not to disturb baby and dont worry oo.. i wont naughty naughty go do something that will make you angry wan oh.. all i will do is guai guai waiting for you okay~ baby you know i will always stay by ur side rite? i always love u .. muackzz baby!! jia you jia you oh !!! K@mbat3 ya!!!! *
From wen <3>

p/s: It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone, but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.

friday!!

went to Wangsa Maju find baby today.. we spent a little time together because i have to rush back to take care of my siblings as my parents were not free this day ... and yet .. baby have to stay back there to study for his finals.. anyway .. he is not at klang tis week..

we had a long journey tis day ... well.. it's funny but i'm alright..we had our brunch at fish market1! i suggested it !! haha ... cause i miss the food .. lolxx.. i love to eat i guess...taken some pic pic of him..

"he's poving that spoon can be the mirror"

tat was our outing !! short and fast!! ^^ but it's very happy yo meet him.. i love him...

ohyea .. i wear this shirt today .. was suppose to buy for baby wan .. but then it was too small ... so i gave it to my bro.. and i stole it and wear it on friday ...here's the pic..

that's all lor for my favourite shirt...

To love someone is

to understand each other,

to laugh together,

to smile with your heart, and

to trust one another.

finals over

yay!! Finally finals over !!! and it's someone turn to fight for finals !! hehe jia you orhx!!!

next friday results coming out .. sob sob .. pray hard .. i just want a pass!! pls pls pls...

After finals.. didn't go anywhere celebrate v friends..when my friends going futsal, going movie... guess so ..when me .. i was following mommy all the way to bank and do some stuff and pick sisters brother up and i did facial today !!! hoho!!! funny?? nah!!!

oopsss.... suddenly my brain hang .. and i dont know what to continue ..

ermm.... my finals was alright.. but i still afraid of my results.. sob ..hmmm forget bout finals.. let's talk CAR!! haha .. i love car car carssss... i saw 2 nissa fairladyz today ... hmmm i was thinking .. wat's the hidden message??(nissan fairladyz are coming to me) lolxx... i'm greedy !!! i wan BMW M5!! wakaka ...remember muz white oh...

ohyea!!!i wish to do something towards my nissan sylphy!!! change rims??wheels??whatever!!!

If i can change it onli i think wat to change after tis !! hehe!! ^^

last but not least... here's somthing i think it's meaningful

It seems totally unfair that we should

have to forgive when we're the ones

who have been hurt, but that's the crux

of FORGIVENESS~~

p/s: forgive ain't forget!!!

wednesday^^

had maths class today .. was just revision.. but i think is worth to attend the class.. anyhow, that class wasn't alot of people attended .. not more than 20 .. serious shit..i'm always the good wan^^

after class.. went wangsa maju find baby ... seems like very long never find baby between monday to thursday.. i will always find baby on friday and went for an outing and went back klang together.. but today different case.. my baby lazy attend class .. lazy baby...

lolxxx.. i wore jeans today .. i seldon wear jeans.. can say i mostly never wear jeans... cause i feel vry fat .. sob sob.. and baby you are the first bf that saw me wear jeans.. feel proud huh.. =.= juz jk..

although nothing much at there but at least i enjoyed the moment v baby .. here's my jeans pic taken..

fat huh?! sob T.T

baby i'm sorry for everything.. although i noe sorry doesn't make any sense..
T.T DUI BU QI OH!!!!!!

p/s: finals coming !!!