我还想他

泪水将我淹没到底谁该难过

究竟是谁放掉这段感情

我才终于明白办不到的承诺

就成了枷锁

现实中幸福永远缺货

请告诉他我不爱他

笑着难过自我惩罚

想终止这一切挣扎

横了心说真心谎话

别告诉她我还想他

恨总比爱容易放下

当泪水堵住了胸口

就让沉默代替所有回答

我不爱我不痛我不懂

我的心早已经掏空

真心话言不由衷

everthing ends tonight!!

anything...this blog was end... forever love... was gone.. sorry for breaking my promise..

to li jie.. don always say i dunno how to be his gf so tat he will fall in love v u .. i noe him more than u do.. it's not like tat...

li jie.. although i always disturb u is my fault... but do u think u did nothing wrong also?? ya .. fren go out was not a wrong.. but secretly be with my bf is a wrong.. u dont know the feeling.. it's even hurt than die.. li jie.. do watever things.. think of ur future.. u wont wan ur future bf got the same problem like i do.. just.. be truth...

bi... forever love.. does not exist if u keep on lying.. apple leave u .. cause she dont trust u .. i leave u .. is because of i trust u .. i trust u until i can blame myself.. until i can hurt myself.. until i can hate myself enough to love u .. baby.. a truth is more than enough..

i'm tired.. i quit this game le... i mean.. 3 ppl in a relationship was not wat i want.. i'm sorry..

blog is dead!!

love is dead!!

yuki is dead!!

ming zhang in my heart... dead!!

bye bloggy..

*it ends tonight*

before regrets..

i used 30 minutes reading a touching story tat my friend sent it to me through email... my heart was crying .. told myself don cry in pubic anymore.. tat's super ugly..i want u now.. i wan a big hug from u now.. telling u how much i love u .. how much i need u..love ... is not wat we say simply fall in love and simply give up.. in this relationship.. i cried..i hurt.. i sad.. emotion change every moment/. but baby.. the only things tat wouldn't change was my love..

i knew .. i told u a lot of times before tat i wanted to change.. i wanted to forget her.. but baby.. i already forget the past.. the only thing was now.. close 1 eye yuki.. i told myself.. told myself u wasn't purposely don let me go .. u want me to study.. u don want me to skip class.. baby..i dont wanna find out the truth anymore.. baby.. u said i simply think.. but .. how long i've been together v u ?? next week .. was 11months we've been together.. do u think i still dont understand u? baby.. i was in ur heart.. do u expect me to feel wrong when i'm in ur heart? forget bout it alright?? forget bout it...

do you love me? asking this question again and again.. wasn't trying to make u fed up.. just wish to hear tat u told me u love me.. baby.. dont tell me everything was too early for us.. tat's nothing to do v our relationship.. we wouldn't noe wat will happen to us in future.. i just wish to be with u happily for this moment.. never say it's too early .. or else.. it will be too late for us.. telling u i love u everyday.. wasn't fake feeling from me.. i really wish to tell u how much i love u.. how much i fall for u.. who noes.. maybe i'm not in this world anymore and i cant even tell u tat i love u.. maybe u will feel bored of those sweet sweet words from me.. but.. still i'm serious..

in this relationship.. i'm very serious very truthful very sincere.. i'm already 19 years old..for the past 18 years.. i never been so serious before..i work out very hard.. just to be with u as long as i can..i realize.. love is not a game.. love is not a feeling tat u can control as wat as u like.. finding a right person in ur life is not tat easy.. fall in love ?? tat's hard for me.. tat's the reason why i'm holding on.. keep holding on.. how suffer i am.. keep holding on.. whether u will leave me 1 day or not.. at least i wont regret tat i never give up on u ..

i'm sorry.. sorry for being a disturbing girlfriend.. sorry for always making u mad at me.. sorry for those argument.. sorry for being so immature.. baby.. for everything .. i was glad.. to be your girlfriend.. i always thank God for letting me to met u.. i appreciate every moment together with you.. with all my heart.. i love u.. never ever wannat let u go.. unless.. u wanna leave me.. i'll give up baby... maybe i will learn to give up .. if u wanna leave me so badly..

to yvonne.. i dont mind if u feel tat i'm fake or anything.. i did nothing wrong.. i never find ur BOY!! if u wanna revenge on me with anything .. go ahead.. i'm tired of preventing from u .. and yeah.. dont ever think tat u r the only 1 loyal girl in this world.. u dont understand me.. u don know wat's going on.. just shut ur mind out of me.. okay.!







p/s: i wana hear it ends tonight now.. sadness ends right now!!
pp/s:dont waste time on fox-ing me.. if u want.. go ahead
ppp/s: heading to my class now..see ya^^

pic pic season~~

hi..yea..was me again..

back to my blog again.. just dont know why.. everytime i feel sad or unhappy .. i'll back to blog huggie..and split out some of my feeling.. not all actually.. still got 50% kept in my heart!ermm.. don wanna post emo post eh.. although i'm not in mood.. how bout sharing pictures?? i actually taken some picture past few days of wat i've done.. i post it out here lar then.^^

well.. didnt bought this dress.. it cost RM99.90 eh!!maybe it's not expensive for some people.. but for me.. it was..

someone laugh at me when i took this picture.. wat to do ?? i never been through ...

....KL Tower marr..

Tall har?? huge whey..

Diamond??Nah ..lame !

I feel this was funny.. dont u think about tat??Hmmm...

lol...I don even give up on cute baby in KL TOWER!

Must remember me oo.. when u get popular in future.. wakaka~~

~THE END~

p/s: try the song makes me wonder bu maroon 5.. it's nice..^^

dead and gone please...

teach me !!! how to trust u when i got things to prove tat u r lying?? i dont wanna to mess up ur holiday .. n i just want u to be truth to me .. baby.. is tat hard?? i was like clown today .. crying on the street so madly .. i was like mad people hurting myself so badly .. wat u feel? u still can enjoy your holiday there?? my hands still got the deep red line there.. u noe how pain am i ?? if wanted to compare the pain.. my heart was worst !! you noe how i spend the 8 hours at subang?? i wans alone at the playground.. crying again and again.. thinking again and again.. wat should i do?? why am i so sad.. why all these happened?? baby.. u treat me very nice yesterday and today.. but .. why let me found out the lie again??

i having heavy headache.. my high heels seriously damage.. i'm totally a nerds right now.. still got guy trying to take my number?? wat the hell!!! joker ..i'm really very inconsolable..i noe u treat me very good.. but baby.. u noe wat .. i wan truth!!! a lie is more than enough to kill my heart!! i really very tired now!!





p/s:enjoy your trip .. anyway..
pp/s: still remember the video?? wat u promise me?? wat u said to me?? i hope .. it's all truth!!
ppp/s: my hands look super ugly.
pppp/s: my head and leg super pain..
ppppp/s: my heart need to settle down..
pppppp/s: i love u .. trust in u not to let u cheat.. be truth before regret..
ppppppp/s: kill me!!

*dead and gone please!!*

爱你的心..爱到不懂得怎么表达了..讲也讲累了..吵也吵累了..真的不懂的该怎么做了..

b...o..r......e....d

hi ..was supposed to blog the past few days .. but i'm sooo super duper lazy ..well .. why am i blogging right now cause i was too bored.. suppose to finish class at 9.30 but end early today .. and i did not know where to spend my time for 2hours30minutes.. so damn lifeless eh.. here comes the song Mr. lonely ^^

i almost fall asleep in the lecture again.. AGAIN!! cause i cant even sleep for the whole night.. there's really a lot of stuff in my mind.. and yet .. is all about a person.. just you.. you can ruins up all my mind..i felt so .. funny..

the question tat u ask me yesterday.. till not .. those words haven't digest in my mind yet.. so hurt...so cool.. haha.. i can feel the pain in my heart..

errr...suddenly i'm blank!! stuck in front of comp dunno wat to cont.. anyway..people around me seems like suffering from sickness.. vicvic babe and my baby.. pls take good care of yourself..again.. drink lots lots of water..take enough rest alright?? hmmm... when will it be my turn to sick?? =.= *eww..weirdo!!*

ohya.. i learnt tis word ~GAP~ yesterday actually .. and today's lecture i saw the word.. interesting isn't it? but i prefer ~NO GAP~ *peace*

alright, am going to have my breakfast now..chaozz




p/s: I LOVE YOU//

tiring day

i'm freak out!!exhausted!!inconsolable!!pretty tired today.. as i only slept for 3hours..i'm not rushing for assignment.. not preparing for examinations.. but moody.. cause of something.. i cant sleep well for the night.. wat's wrong with me .. dont ask me.. i also don't know..

well.. just finish statistic.. i was like .. oh thank Godness .. i was nearly fall asleep in the lecture hall .. but i'm strong .. wakaka..alone at resourse centre.. just dont feel like find anyone.. need alone.. well .. worlds.. full of liars.. who should i trust anyway..

something happened.. and i'm really pretty sure about it .. but he deny it.. make me confuse again.. i said.. if it's true, just admit! and yeah.. it's true.. i'm not using my feeling to make decision .. but it's all based on the what have been proven.. i'm tired.. really very tired.. how many forgiveness i've given..what should i do right now?? i don't know.. let it over like that.. and both of you stil meeting up as you 2 like?? i just cant take it ..

yea .. you both are not couple.. but what baby.. not all people in love that need to couple.. you both can stil be friend but there's a lot of things between both of you.. she's tricky.. you're misterious.. i just want truth!!! is that hard?? no ... it's not.. when i'm telling the truth.. when i'm doing the right things .. i won't regret in the end.. i wont feel bad about myself.. at least i true to myself .. right??

i love u .. i really do.. everyday u will heard or saw this three words from me.. did i miss it even 1 day?? no .. i never.. just because of i'm afraid that you don't know how deep my love towards you .. baby.. being with you .. it's the best things in my life.. although there's a lot of sad things that i've gone through.. but still i'm happy to be with u .. are u?? i'm satisfy v a boyfriend like u .. eventhough .. u r hot tempered .. just because of you gave me the feeling .. not the matter of good looking or not.. that's the reason why i'm afraid of losing u ..

baby.. can you just don't lie to me anymore ?? yesterday was the last time.. can we just .... be truthful and sincere to both of us?? i just .. want a simple love .. simple love baby!! remember what we've told each other?? "no secret between us" i did it.. but baby.. how bout u?? do you still want me to stay beside u?? i dont wanna to make decision.. stay by your side is what i want.. but ..i dont like forcing baby.. if you dont wanna to be with me .. just tell me alright??

baby..although i've wish you yesterday .. but i'll wish u now again alright?? all the best baby.. good luck!!

and yeah:

I LOVE YOU!!

weird weird feeling

i'm feeling weird..T.T feel very lonely .. dunno wat to do.. i havin a heavy headache.. really very pain.. tired exhausted..i cant explain all of my feeling .. was very very weird.. i dont even know wat i feel now.. stupid..

lonely > post blog > miss u but keep my hands off my phone > wan sleep but wanted to wait u ..

yea i'm weird.. sorry..

aikss.. forget bout weird yuki.. suddenly have this thought.. "sorry" i dunno since when.. i started to say sorry easily.. no matter i did wrong or not.. i just say sorry.. but not to everyone.. to u .. baby..
i know it might let u feel nothing after i've been apologize for so many times.. it's really very very a lot a lot of times.. right baby?? but wat else i can do when u r mad at me?

i'm hearing the song single oo.. very nice oo..

10.58PM - i was worrying how u gonna back later.. but u told me u dont know..u sounds like i'm bothering u baby..am i? 2 weeks time .. i dont get to keep in touch v u nicely..i'm happy when u calling me baby..i'm happy when u telling me tat u love me..but i'm sad .. when u mad at me and don care me a lot... yea.. i understand.. exam is more than everything.. i shouldn't just stick v u too overly.. i'm sorry ..

hearing it ends tonight oh baby.. i love this song.. u noe mar??^^ all the unhappiness things should ends tonight.. cause when darkness turns to light.. it ends tonight.. only the things wouldn't end.. was my love to u ..i love u baby...

lalala..here goes my wishes to u .."baby..tomolo micro arr.. exam at afternoon hor.. jia you wor k?? add oil add oil oo.. K@mBat3 ya.. muacks muacks.. i love u wor.."








p/s:i got 8o'clock class tomolo..pity lonely me.. sob..goodnight goodnight^^