before regrets..

i used 30 minutes reading a touching story tat my friend sent it to me through email... my heart was crying .. told myself don cry in pubic anymore.. tat's super ugly..i want u now.. i wan a big hug from u now.. telling u how much i love u .. how much i need u..love ... is not wat we say simply fall in love and simply give up.. in this relationship.. i cried..i hurt.. i sad.. emotion change every moment/. but baby.. the only things tat wouldn't change was my love..

i knew .. i told u a lot of times before tat i wanted to change.. i wanted to forget her.. but baby.. i already forget the past.. the only thing was now.. close 1 eye yuki.. i told myself.. told myself u wasn't purposely don let me go .. u want me to study.. u don want me to skip class.. baby..i dont wanna find out the truth anymore.. baby.. u said i simply think.. but .. how long i've been together v u ?? next week .. was 11months we've been together.. do u think i still dont understand u? baby.. i was in ur heart.. do u expect me to feel wrong when i'm in ur heart? forget bout it alright?? forget bout it...

do you love me? asking this question again and again.. wasn't trying to make u fed up.. just wish to hear tat u told me u love me.. baby.. dont tell me everything was too early for us.. tat's nothing to do v our relationship.. we wouldn't noe wat will happen to us in future.. i just wish to be with u happily for this moment.. never say it's too early .. or else.. it will be too late for us.. telling u i love u everyday.. wasn't fake feeling from me.. i really wish to tell u how much i love u.. how much i fall for u.. who noes.. maybe i'm not in this world anymore and i cant even tell u tat i love u.. maybe u will feel bored of those sweet sweet words from me.. but.. still i'm serious..

in this relationship.. i'm very serious very truthful very sincere.. i'm already 19 years old..for the past 18 years.. i never been so serious before..i work out very hard.. just to be with u as long as i can..i realize.. love is not a game.. love is not a feeling tat u can control as wat as u like.. finding a right person in ur life is not tat easy.. fall in love ?? tat's hard for me.. tat's the reason why i'm holding on.. keep holding on.. how suffer i am.. keep holding on.. whether u will leave me 1 day or not.. at least i wont regret tat i never give up on u ..

i'm sorry.. sorry for being a disturbing girlfriend.. sorry for always making u mad at me.. sorry for those argument.. sorry for being so immature.. baby.. for everything .. i was glad.. to be your girlfriend.. i always thank God for letting me to met u.. i appreciate every moment together with you.. with all my heart.. i love u.. never ever wannat let u go.. unless.. u wanna leave me.. i'll give up baby... maybe i will learn to give up .. if u wanna leave me so badly..

to yvonne.. i dont mind if u feel tat i'm fake or anything.. i did nothing wrong.. i never find ur BOY!! if u wanna revenge on me with anything .. go ahead.. i'm tired of preventing from u .. and yeah.. dont ever think tat u r the only 1 loyal girl in this world.. u dont understand me.. u don know wat's going on.. just shut ur mind out of me.. okay.!







p/s: i wana hear it ends tonight now.. sadness ends right now!!
pp/s:dont waste time on fox-ing me.. if u want.. go ahead
ppp/s: heading to my class now..see ya^^